Girls Nowadays (part2)

I wonder why they can drop their tears easily.

and I mean, that easy.

berantem ama cowonya, nangis. putus sama cowonya, nangis. cowonya punya pacar baru, nangis. nonton pelem, nangis. kecebur got, nangis. hapenya ilang, nangis

ah kalo gue hape ilang bukan nangis lagi. jerit guling-guling histeris bisa kali.

sheesh...

bukannya gue mengejek ini. tapi itu emang kekuatan mereka (yang paling kuat)

coba kita liat ibu kita nangis. ga tega kan?
ya itu ibu sih, our mom(s) isn't "girls nowadays". kecuali yang emang kebelet gaul dan emang immature.

banyak loh ibu-ibu kayak gitu. biasanya yang ibunya begini yaa pribahasa "buah jauh tak jauh dari pohonnya" itu terbukti banget.

ehm, sori. gue cuma pengen ngebuka fakta realita aja disini.
but open your eyes. just for a moment. you'll see many kind anomaly that you thought it was just a joke.
but it isn't.

oke, balik lagi

 personally,it is that hard for me to cry about things that really sampah for me.
gue cuma bisa nangis kalo berantem sama ortu, dan ikut funeral.

itupun medes-medesin mata dulu ala artis2 sinetron

kalo kata mereka "nangis itu anugerah"
kalo kata gue "nangis itu ga guna"

tapi gue butuh air mata buat mata gue yang kerap panas kalo suasana hati udah gaenak.
dan itu ga keluar.

bagoooooos

i dunno, but how it feels like? crying all night long like that? trus bangun-bangun dengan mata super bengkak dan akhirnya terpaksa boong ke temen2 lo kalo lo cuma kurang tidur.
mending boong. cewe jaman sekarang nangis udah bisa jadi bahan beritaan infotainment.

is it just me, or cry is just a useless thing to do?
okey, too much "just"

orang selalu punya cara yang berbeda buat ngebangkitin dirinya, masuk dalam trek dan ikut jalan lagi bersama siklus hidup yang seharusnya.

dulu gue cengeng. cengeng bgt.
tapi peristiwa di waktu itu ngebuat gue sadar kalo nangis bener2 ga ada gunanya dan ck, Hello!!! this is life! bad things happen!
dan melalui proses proses ga enak lainnya dan jadilah gue yang hati batu.

hey, girls nowadays, can you teach me, how to cry easily?
i need my tears running down my face. I need some "oasis fatamorgana" in the middle of my dessert.

terkadang, being very busy is not enough to cover your past.
dan emang ga akan pernah cukup.

kita, manusia, selalu hidup dengan dibayang-bayangi masa lalu.
makanya banyak dari kita yang galau-galau gabisa move on atau
takut ngelakuin sesuatu krn trauma di masa lalu.

intinya? get over it aja sih.
dan bersikap skeptis. kayaknya itu lebih efektif buat gue.
bersikap skeptis dan apatis terhadap dunia.


ehehe sori, postingan ini gue aga jengah buat ngebanyol.
well, just have a loss, a friend of mine, a little friend of mine.
She's just 8 years old, but already taught me how to see this life differently.
with our condition, is very fucking hard to see the world with the same eyes with other people.
and she makes me realize.
realize a lot of things.

i wish i could post the picture of her
i'm gonna search for it. hopefully i can post it in the next post.

I'm glad God took her in a really young age
she doesn't belong here
she's too good to be "the people" I know

God, I need my tears running down my face at this moment.
just please, just for this time.

"keep smiling, Lysha. I'm not gonna tell you that you have to be strong. but you know you've got something they don't. tell me if you're on CNN!" - Cyan Margaret, 8 y.o girl

Rest in Peace, Cyan.
I will always love you

Alysha Paxia,
with no tears:)

IN MEMORIAM OF

Cyan Emelda Margaret
7 July 2004 - 7 September 2012